i don't really like you.

and i kind of wish you went away.

far away.

its not fair, but i can't help it.

does anyone else even read this? it's about to go into cyber space oblivion once again.

There's a little creepy house in a little creepy place

i just want to thank remarcel for always showing me good music. that i end up loving and playing over and over again.

now onto the real post....

i know i'm a sucky person because i don't write here often, but when i find little pockets of time - aka now that my homework is done, then here i am writing. so i don't need you to tell me that i'm a shitty person, elias. yes, i went there.

things are going okay so far. i got re-hired for the same job next school year, not in the same building, but a job is a job. i've really enjoyed this position, i've met some pretty awesome people that i would love to take with me next year, but unfortunately, i cannot. i enjoy spending time with them outside programs, in room hours etc. i like going to the carrot or the mall or the caf with them.

kallee and i finally bought our tickets to boston! freakin' yes!!! i'm going up there for my 21st birthday. meaning, the people who already live there should get ready - i'm expecting nice hefty presents in the form of liquid. no vanilla shit, that's not my style. i'm so excited to be going with kallee, we've been planning this for a while and now it's finally happening. and for such a cheap price, go slutty nips!

i've been getting a little homesick lately, but i get over them just almost as quickly as the feeling comes along - for the most part anyway. luckily, i can call on liane pretty much whenever, although when she returns my calls, she corrupts my mind with filth! you sleaze!

i've lost a pant size, which makes me happy. i still have my stomach pudge, but my waist is smaller! or at least my hips are, which is where the top of my jeans sit. so, needless to say, i went to american eagle and indulged myself a little, i feel like i deserve it.

i miss colleen. we got to talk on skype for like two hours last week, but i knew that was a feak accident because i was in my room and i'm normally in class during that time. i'm hardly here during the day that when i get back in, i try to stay in as much as possible. which is so weird, i used to always stay in and i had to fight myself to go outside. what in the world.

i'm excited for spring break, did i mention that? because i am. like, to no end.

i'm crushing on someone, hard. and of course, since i'm crushing on them, it should be assumed that this person is of course, a) off limits b) highly unaware. or at least i hope they are. well, for the most part that's what my hopes are. it's gotten ridiculous, honestly.

i went to a conference this weekend and it was great! surprisingly. i mean, i did have to dance in front of people, not that much, but any dancing in front of anyone is a hot mess for me and as a result this is stuck in my head - and i'm not always too happy about it....

spartans are what? red hot. spartans are what? red hot. a little r-e-d- with a little bit of h-o-t red hot red hot red hot.

U -u N-n C-c dub dub dub dub dub - i hate you, uncdub

i'm a s-p-a-r-t-an i love it so much i think i'll say it again...i forgot the rest.

miss you guys.
<3

okay stop peer pressuring me to write. i don't get the chance to get on here and write about what's going on, geeze. i can't help it that i'm that awful with time management.

i hope this makes you happy, i did ''write'' so technically, i'm not that bad.

a thousand times over

two posts in one day? get the eff outta here.

i just saw Kite Runner with kiara and that movie is hot shit. y'all need to watch it because that movie will sand you like a mofo.

i don't know why i'm talking like this.

and i'm supposed to respect all of God's creatures, but i have bats living right outside my freakin' window and i just want to quickly grab some rope, a shot gun and belay myself from the roof and shoot them. because they annoy the eff out of me.

anyhow,

liane and i at one point in time found THE perfect word to describe that feeling you get when you hear/see/read/experience something that just, it just sands you. and i cant' remember how we managed to come up with the term ''sanded'' in place of that perfect word. we can't remember it, trust us, we've tried - and we got nothing.

under pressure

SO...

I've once again created a blog because a certain someone has peer pressured me into having on.

it wasn't always like this ..... me being peer pressured into doing stuff ...... i had a blog not that long ago. but i didn't update it all that much, if at all.
but as classes have started again, it is becoming more difficult to find pockets of time to keep in touch with multiple people. this way, i write it once and everyone can read it, at their own pace, and i can read theirs.

are you happy? i hope you're happy, missy.

uhmm what to say?

first things first... i don't have any friday classes! hell freakin' yes! i've always wanted to not have friday classes. i dreamt about it all throughout my primary education. and i never game up on that dream. in high school, i often tried to make it so that i didn't have friday classes - let me clarify. the classes still happened, the teacher and other students showed up. but i wasn't there. and to me that means that I don't have any friday classes.

call it truancy, i call it following a dream .... and isn't that what this country is about? going after the american dream? damn right it is!

uhmm what else?
i'm trying to eat healtheir, giving up soda and sweet tea. it's all water and fruit juices from here. and the occasional life water by sobe. zero calories. zero sugar.

i drink rooibos tea at night and coffee in the morning. i don't know if the coffee is necessarily healthy, but whatever.

and i've been going to work out. which is - always a plus.

i think that's all i really have to say for now. life here isn't always riveting, you know.